Communion with God
Door J. C. Philpot
Wat de religie van een kind van God echt onderscheidt—niet alleen van de openlijke goddeloosheid van ongelovigen, maar ook van de lege, oppervlakkige godsdienst van mensen die alleen met hun mond belijden—is de gemeenschap met God zelf.
We zien dit duidelijk terug in het leven van de heiligen uit de Bijbel. Abel zocht contact met God toen hij het beste van zijn kudde offerde, vertrouwend op het verzoenende bloed van het Lam van God. God aanvaardde zijn offer en liet blijken dat Hij er tevreden mee was. Zo ontstond er echte gemeenschap tussen Abel en God. Henoch “wandelde met God”—en dat kan alleen als er overeenstemming en verbondenheid is. Abraham werd “de vriend van God” genoemd, Mozes sprak met God “van aangezicht tot aangezicht” en David werd “een man naar Gods hart” genoemd. Al deze voorbeelden laten zien dat zij dicht bij God leefden en in hechte gemeenschap met Hem wandelden.
De heiligen uit Hebreeën 11 leefden allemaal een leven van geloof, gebed en omgang met God, zelfs als ze werden vervolgd, arm waren of moesten vluchten. Ondanks hun lijden werden ze gedragen door Gods Geest en kracht, en hielden ze vast aan hun relatie met Hem. Zelfs als ze gemarteld werden, weigerden ze hun geloof op te geven, omdat ze hoopten op een betere opstanding en verlangden om God in Zijn heerlijkheid te zien.
Diezelfde gemeenschap met God is waartoe Hij ook nu nog Zijn kinderen roept. Zoals er staat: “God is getrouw, door Welken gij geroepen zijt tot de gemeenschap van Zijn Zoon Jezus Christus, onzen Heere.” (1 Kor. 1:9). Gemeenschap met Jezus is gemeenschap met God zelf. Zoals God Abraham uit zijn land riep, zo roept Hij mensen:
uit de wereld,
uit de duisternis,
uit zonde en dood,
uit uiterlijke godsdienst en eigen gerechtigheid,
uit een schijnbare, maar niet oprechte geloofsbelijdenis,
om met Hem te leven en Zijn liefde en genade te ervaren.
Alles wat God doet in het leven van Zijn kinderen, is erop gericht hen dichter bij Hem te brengen. Beproevingen, moeilijkheden en verdriet zijn bedoeld om hen te vormen en voor te bereiden op de eeuwige gemeenschap met Hem, waarin ze voor altijd door Zijn liefde omringd zullen zijn.
Zelfs als iemand net tot geloof komt, is er iets in zijn hart dat hem onderscheidt van anderen, ongeacht hun overtuigingen of gedrag. Ondanks verwarring, schuld of zelfveroordeling is er een verlangen naar God, ook al weet men nog niet goed wie Hij is. Er is:
besef van Gods grootheid,
eerbied voor Zijn Naam,
ontzag voor Zijn woorden,
nederigheid,
oprechtheid,
zelfonderzoek,
angst voor schijnheiligheid,
verlangen naar het licht,
worsteling om het goede te doen,
gevoeligheid voor zonde en eigen zwakheid.
Deze innerlijke houding zie je niet bij mensen die alleen uiterlijk godsdienstig zijn, ongeacht hun achtergrond of overtuiging. Bij hen ontbreekt het aan echte bekering, geloof en eerbied voor God. Hun religie is vooral uiterlijk en gebaseerd op eigen kracht of kennis, maar mist de diepgaande verandering die Gods genade brengt.
Wie door God levend gemaakt is, beleeft zijn geloof diep van binnen, vaak te midden van strijd en beproeving. Soms durft hij nauwelijks tot God te naderen vanwege het besef van zijn eigen zonden, maar toch zoekt hij steeds weer Gods nabijheid in gebed. Soms voelt hij zich schuldig of onwaardig, soms is er twijfel of angst dat zijn geloof niet echt is. Maar juist door deze worstelingen leert hij steeds meer over zichzelf, over de leegte van uiterlijke godsdienst, over de kracht van zonde en de noodzaak van Gods genade.
Naarmate hij meer leert over wie God is—Zijn liefde, vergeving en volbrachte werk door Jezus—groeit het verlangen naar echte gemeenschap met Hem. Elke nieuwe ervaring van Gods goedheid trekt het hart dichter naar Hem toe. Ook al struikelt hij soms, voelt hij zich koud of ver weg, telkens weer wordt zijn hart geraakt, zoekt hij vergeving en verlangt hij naar Gods nabijheid.
Het vraagt veel om de ziel tot rust te brengen bij God: beproevingen, lessen in nederigheid, het loslaten van eigen trots, en het leren vertrouwen op Gods liefde en verlossing. Maar juist in deze weg groeit het verlangen om niet meer tegen God te zondigen, maar te leven in eerbied en afhankelijkheid van Hem.
Al deze innerlijke ervaringen komen voort uit de gemeenschap tussen Christus en de gelovige. Zoals de Bijbel zegt: “Wij zijn leden van zijn lichaam.” Jezus heeft ons lijden gedragen en weet wat het is om verzocht te worden. Daarom kan Hij ons begrijpen, troosten en kracht geven, zodat wij uiteindelijk overwinnaars worden door Zijn genade.
Dit onderwerp is zo rijk en diep dat het nauwelijks te bevatten is. Het reikt van de diepste pijn tot de hoogste vreugde en omvat alles wat het betekent om als mens met God te leven—nu en tot in eeuwigheid.
Nothing distinguishes the divine religion of the child of God, not only from the dead profanity of the openly ungodly, but from the formal lip-service of the lifeless professor—so much as communion with God.
How clearly do we see this exemplified in the saints of old. Abel sought after fellowship with God when “he brought of the firstlings of his flock, and of the fat thereof,” for he looked to the atoning blood of the Lamb of God. God accepted the offering, and “testified of his gifts” by manifesting his divine approbation. Here was fellowship between Abel and God. Enoch “walked with God;” but how can two walk together except they be agreed? And if agreed, they are in fellowship and communion. Abraham was “the friend of God;” “The Lord spoke to Moses face to face;” David was “the man after God’s own heart”—all which testimonies of the Holy Spirit concerning them implied that they were reconciled, brought near, and walked in holy communion with the Lord God Almighty.
So all the saints of old, whose sufferings and exploits are recorded in Hebrews 11 lived a life of faith and prayer, a life of fellowship and communion with their Father and their friend; and though “they were stoned, sawn asunder, and slain with the sword;” though “they wandered about in sheep-skins and goat-skins, being destitute, afflicted, tormented;” though “they wandered in deserts and in mountains, and in dens and caves of the earth,” yet they all were sustained in their sufferings and sorrows by the Spirit and grace, the presence and power of the living God, with whom they held sweet communion; and, though tortured, would “accept no deliverance,” by denying their Lord, “that they might obtain a better resurrection,” and see him as he is in glory, by whose grace they were brought into fellowship with him on earth.
This same communion with himself is that which God now calls his saints unto, as we read, “God is faithful, by whom you were called unto the fellowship of his Son Jesus Christ our Lord,” (1 Cor. 1:9,) for to have fellowship with his Son is to have fellowship with him. As then he called Abraham out of the land of the Chaldees, so he calls elect souls . . . out of the world, out of darkness, out of sin and death, out of formality and self-righteousness, out of a deceptive profession, to have fellowship with Himself, to be blessed with manifestations of His love and mercy.
To this point all his dealings with their souls tend to bring them near to himself, all their afflictions, trials, and sorrows are sent; and in giving them tastes of holy fellowship here, he grants them foretastes of that eternity of bliss which will be theirs when time shall be no more, in being forever swallowed up with his presence and love.
Even in the first awakenings of the Spirit, in the first quickenings of his grace, there is that in the living soul which eternally distinguishes it from all others, whatever be their profession, however high or however low, however in doctrine sound or unsound, however in practice consistent or inconsistent. There is, amid all its trouble, darkness, guilt, confusion, and self-condemnation, a striving after communion with God; though still ignorant of who or what he is, and still unable to approach him with confidence. There is . . . a sense of His greatness and glory; a holy fear and godly awe of His great name; a trembling at His word; a brokenness, a contrition, a humility, a simplicity, a sincerity, a self-abasement, a distrust of self, a dread of hypocrisy and self-deception, a coming to the light, a laboring to enter the strait gate, a tenderness of conscience, a sense of helplessness and inability, a groaning under the guilt and burden of sin, a quickness to see its workings, and an alarm lest they should break forth—all which we never see in a dead, carnal professor, whether the highest Calvinist or the lowest Arminian.
In all these carnal professors, whatever their creed or name, there is a hardness, a boldness, an ignorance, and a self-confidence which chill and repel a child of God. Their religion has in it no repentance and no faith—therefore no hatred of sin or fear of God. It is a mere external, superficial form, springing out of a few natural convictions, and attended with such false hopes and self-righteous confidence as a Balaam might have from great gifts, or an Ahithophel from great knowledge, or the Pharisee in the temple from great consistency, but as different from a work of grace as heaven from earth.
How different from this is he who is made alive unto God. His religion is one carried on between God and his own conscience, in the depths of his soul, and, for the most part, amid much affliction and temptation.
Being pressed down with a sight and sense of the dreadful evil of sin, he at times dares hardly draw near to God, or utter a word before the great and glorious majesty of heaven. And yet he is sometimes driven and sometimes drawn to pour out his heart before him, and seek his face night and day, besides more set seasons of prayer and supplication. And yet this he cannot do without peculiar trial and temptation. If he stays away from the throne, he is condemned in his own conscience as having no religion, as being a poor, prayerless, careless wretch; if he come, he is at times almost overwhelmed by a sight of the majesty and holiness of God, and his open, dreadful sins against and before the eyes of his infinite purity. If he is cold and dead, he views that as a mark of his own hypocrisy; if he is enlarged, and feels holy liberty and blessed confidence spring up in his soul, he can scarcely believe it real, and fears lest it be presumption, and that Satan is now deceiving him as an angel of light; if he has a promise applied, and is sweetly blessed for a time, he calls it afterwards all in question; if favored under the word, to see his salvation clearly, he often questions whether it were really of God; and if his mouth is opened to speak to a Christian friend of any sweetness he has enjoyed, or any liberty that he has felt, he is tried to the very quick, before an hour is gone over his head, whether he has not been deceiving a child of God.
But by all these things living souls are instructed. The emptiness of a mere profession, the deceitfulness of their own hearts, the darkness, misery, and death that sin always brings in its train when secretly indulged, the vanity of this poor, passing scene, the total inability of the creature, whether in themselves or others, to give them any real satisfaction, all become more thoroughly inwrought into their soul’s experience. And as they get glimpses and glances of the King in his beauty, and see and feel more of his blessedness and suitability to all their wants and woes; as his blood and righteousness, glorious person, and finished work are more sensibly realized, believed in, looked unto, and reposed upon; and as he himself is pleased to commune with them from the mercy-seat through his word, Spirit, presence, and love, they begin to hold close and intimate fellowship with him.
Every fresh view of his beauty and blessedness draws their heart more towards him; and though they often slip, stumble, start aside, wander away on the dark mountains, though often as cold as ice and hard as rock—with no more feeling religion than the stones of the pavement, and viler in their own feelings than the vilest and worst—still ever and anon their stony heart relents, the tear of grief runs down their cheek, their bosom heaves with godly sorrow, prayer and supplication go forth from their lips, sin is confessed and mourned over, pardon is sought with many cries, the blood of sprinkling is begged for, a word, a promise, a smile, a look, a touch, are again and again besought, until body and soul are alike exhausted with the earnestness of expressed desire.
O, how much is needed to bring the soul to its only Rest and Center. What trials and afflictions; what furnaces, floods, rods, and strokes, as well as smiles, promises, and gracious drawings! What pride and self to be brought out of! What love and blood to be brought unto! What lessons to learn of the freeness and fullness of salvation! What sinkings in self! What risings in Christ! What guilt and condemnation on account of sin; what self-loathing and self-abasement; what distrust of self; what fears of falling; what prayers and desires to be kept; what clinging to Christ; what looking up and unto his divine majesty, as faith views him at the right hand of the Father; what desires never more to sin against him, but to live, move, and act in the holy fear of God, do we find, more or less daily, in a living soul!
And whence springs all this inward experience but from the fellowship and communion which there is between Christ and the soul? “We are members,” says the Apostle, “of his body, of his flesh, and of his bones.” As such there is a mutual participation in sorrow and joy. “He has borne our griefs, and carried our sorrows.” “He was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.” He can, therefore, “be touched with the feelings of our infirmities,” can pity and sympathize; and thus, as we may cast upon him our sins and sorrows, when faith enables, so can he supply, out of his own fullness, that grace and strength which can bring us off eventually more than conquerors.
But here, for the present, we pause, having only just touched the threshold of a subject so full of divine blessedness. Such a subject as this, descending to all the depths of sin and sorrow, and rising up to all the heights of grace and glory, embracing fellowship with Christ in his sufferings and fellowship with Christ in his glory, is a theme for Paul after he had been caught up into the third heaven, and for John in Patmos, after he had seen him walking in the midst of the seven golden candlesticks; nor even could their divinely-taught souls adequately comprehend, nor their divinely-inspired pens worthily describe all that is contained in the solemn mystery of the communion that the Church, as the Bride of the Lamb, is called to enjoy with Father, Son, and Holy Spirit, the great and glorious Three-in-One God!